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I actually started rearranging the shop for Christmas. This is huge because decorating for Christmas has been #1 on the to-do list for about 4 weeks.

I think I shall take pics of the shop at Christmas and post them here. I must say, I am usually quite proud of how it turns out every year. Claudia and I do a TON of work and put a lot of effort into it every year. Every year it is different. Which is a challenge since for the last 2 years my boss hasn't bought any new Christmas merchandise. We have to make the old stuff look new.

It can be a real challenge.

And we have less than 3 weeks before our Christmas Open House. *pulls hair out*

Ordinarily we would have started decorating 3 weeks ago...

yesterday morning I made a big pot of coffee and put the breakfast in the oven and went into the living room to check my e-mail and read my Bible, and enjoy time alone on a Saturday morning.

Then, I heard something weird in the kitchen... and I went to see what it was. And it was my coffee. All over the counter. *sobs* my coffee pot had cracked.

I was not happy Bob.

My finances do not allow room for buying extra kitchen appliances.

I took out my frustration on the dishes.

So, we were getting ready to go over to Mom and Dad's and I wanted to go to Walgreen's and get a new coffee maker and the girls didn't think that was a good idea and it was very frustrating and long story short all 3 of us ended up going to K-mart together, where we stood in the aisle looking at coffee makers. Steph and Katie listened to me sighing about how expensive these things are... yada yada...

Finally Katie spills the beans. She and Steph had planned to surprise me with a new coffee maker (tied with a bow) and a card reading "Happy Saturday" :) except I was too stubborn to just let them go alone, and so they ended up having to bring me along... aren't they sweet?

So, I have a new coffee maker in my kitchen now. And this one is NICE, people! It's programmable! So, this morning, the coffee was hot and ready before we even got out of bed!! and... it's RED! matches my kitchen beautifully!!!

I learned today that my boss plans to buy a space heater for Claudia and I to keep on our side of the design table. *skips in delight* The heating system at the shop is ANCIENT. Last year the heaters ran constantly and still only kept it at 54 degrees in the back. 54 DEGREES!!! I felt like I worked in an igloo. I drank hot chocolate by the gallons and wore 2 sweatshirts and my knit cap all winter.

But, this winter should be much better!!! I'm so glad my boss is willing to do this! She can be really thoughtful when she's not too busy. She said she was going to get a space heater "so maybe you won't be so sick this winter." Wasn't that nice???

Now, we'll see if she actually remembers to get one...

So, this morning I was cleaning off my dresser, organizing my makeup brushes and makeup and lotions and potions and finding things I never use, and finding my bank statements (my dresser is a TERRIBLE mess, obviously...)

Anywho, that's irrelevant.

So, I was working and thinking. And I was thinking about going to see Fireproof (which we are doing today) and wondering why I'm so not looking forward to it. Um... why I'm dreading it actually? And I know that it's partly because I'm just being such a stick-in-the-mud lately and feeling like I don't want to do anything other than stay home. And I know I am depressed right now. Going through some tough things. Like, um, what is going to happen to me?!?!? And feeling like turning 27 is going to make me really old and spinster-like.

The hardest thing about being single for me, is that in my mind I'm not MEANT to be single. I've always thought I would be married. I planned for it and prepared for it. And, I did NOT prepare to be single. So, I'm floundering, and feeling like I've made mistakes and wondering what they were and how to fix them. And I feel like no one is taking my problem seriously. I'm taking it very seriously. But, I feel like no one else is. Now, to be fair, I don't have many close friends that I see regularly. Actually, none. And most of my friends are married, so they're not in the spot I'm in to know from personal experience what I'm going through. And, to really be fair, I have never been a pour-my-heart-out talker. Conversations with me and other people usually consist of me listening 90% of the time. But, regardless of all that, I can still feel very VERY alone and abandoned at times. Like, right now.

So, to get back to what I was saying.... I was thinking... and I realized that I feel that married people are more important than I am. Higher on the totem pole so to speak.

So, this puzzles me. I'm not really sure what to think. Do you guys feel this way? Is it true?

To my darling KDID. Have a fabulous, klutz-free birthday!

um...

today is Friday. YIPPEE!!!

I don't have to do anything tomorrow except get my nails done. I'm treating myself because I paid off my car loan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I would love actually to treat myself with a shopping spree but, as I already mentioned: I PAID OFF MY CAR LOAN and have not much money leftover. So, I'm just getting my nails done.

I have a new Dorothy Sayers mystery to read that I have not read yet. YIPPEE!

I have a couple of recipes I want to try tomorrow. AND I have TIME to try them! YIPPEE!!

I am very easily contented, obviously.

We had a humdinger of a Bible Study last night. We came up with a question we all have concerning our church's foundational premises (we think)... Anyway, no one knew the answer so some of suggested asking our church elders for an explanation. Easy as pie, for those of us that have open relationships with the church elders. BUT, for the people that will INSIST on reading offense into EVERYTHING... it got kind of hairy... I do hate when people have bad attitudes against authority figures for no reason... Anyway, the whole thing ended with Tom (fellow Bible Studier) and I being elected "spokespeople" for the group to approach the elders with our questions. Which should be ok, since we agree with each other and both definitely have very close relationships with the church elders. I just don't really feel comfortable with the responsibility, and the attitudes...

ok, have a wonderful weekend everyone!!! cheerio!

OK, seriously.... you can't order $2,200 worth of flowers for your wedding and then delay paying it until you feel like it.
You might give a florist an anxiety attack.